Thursday, July 17, 2014

Cayson William

I found this post I wrote a while back when we were announcing your name and didn't realize I never finished it and posted it....


Here is the story leading up to you sweet Cayson William and the meaning of your name!

So September 2nd mommy had some excruciating right ovarian/abdominal pain....first thought was maybe I ovulated, maybe a baby implanted (wouldn't that be exciting) but when the pain persisted and didn't go away I started to think maybe a cyst ruptured....so I called my most favorite OB and momma went in for a sonogram.....I secretly was praying and hoping for a baby but what we saw was lots of ovarian cysts with the biggest on my right ovary measuring 2.5x2.3 cm almost an inch by inch:( So I sat down with Dr. Trylovich and we decided with my family history to go ahead and do tumor markers and make sure the cyst was benign.....Dr. T is amazing and sat with me while I waited for my labs to be drawn....I wasn't even emotional yet at this point, I think just kind of in shock. She asked for the results to be done ASAP and she called me that night with the great news that my tumor marker was only 12.6 which is normal (mom's when her cancer was there was 125). We decided to just follow these cysts closely over the next couple months....my next sonogram on October 8th showed that that cyst had resolved but I now I had an ovarian cyst on my left ovary with several small ones. I have been on birth control pills since 21 with never really having normal periods so Dr. Trylovich discussed with me about how the BCP have probably helped keep them at bay....we decided I would either need to get pregnant or get on BCP to see if that would help....She discussed infertility options with me and after talking with Dennis' doctor that week before they felt that IVF may be our only option...they told us our chances of getting pregnant on our own was probably close to 20%...I left that appointment mostly in shock, we have been told this before but God had bigger plans; he blessed us with our sweet Isabella in the midst of infertility visits for Dennis....I left that day with the plan to continue to wean breastfeeding to help our chances of getting pregnant (but did not want to completely wean until Isabella was a year), had already stopped my progesterone pills and was obviously sad, emotional and tearful but I had this unexplainable hope.....I had this strange feeling that, that wasn't going to be God's plan. I had, had a dream the week before that we were pregnant with a little boy and I just held onto God's promises and what I felt the Lord was saying to me.....Dennis and I discussed our options and plans and decided we wouldn't seek any infertility treatments until January. So time came and went and when I went in for my next follow up sonogram on November 19th (I accidently missed my appt on November 12th-I'm sure it was a God thing)....I was having tons of right ovary pain so I was thinking I probably had a cyst there....let me just say the Lord is amazing.....I had been doing ovulation kits with no positives but at the sonogram the technician said it looks like your right ovary ovulated not once but twice (long winded, long story later but in my 20s there was concern that my right ovary didn't develop fully inutero so this was a huge blessing too)...it could be a cyst that ruptured but it looks like ovulation to me....Dr. T completely agreed and sent me home to work on making a baby....we had lots of sweet family and friends praying for us...and God answered......I took lots of pregnancy tests over the next several weeks...I just had this feeling I was pregnant...my face had broken out (similar to Isabella), I missed my period...and finally on Decemeber 1st I got a positive pregnancy test right before going to see "Catching Fire" with some friends...I couldn't concentrate....oh Lord you are good, thank you, thank you, thank you....I couldn't even wait to come up with a fun way to tell your daddy I was so excited and in such shock...I couldn't believe it....when he got home from work in the middle of the night that night I came out of the bathroom with 3 positive pregnancy tests....we hugged, we cried, and we prayed and begged God for you!

We went in for our blood work to confirm our pregnancy, my Hcg doubled over the 2 days like it was suppose to, my progesterone level elevated just as it should....when we went in for our sonogram at 7 weeks though we could hear a heart beat but were unable to see that sweet heart beat...it was very surreal and unsettling but Dr. T reassured us that since we knew when I ovulated it was probably just too early so she pushed my due date by about 10 days and had us return in a week for a sonogram. She sent me away stressing not to worry but of course we did....it just caused us to be on our knees even more that week and pray and beg God for you....when we went back in a week it was a nice strong heart beat...still not sure there is anything much sweeter than seeing a healthy heart beat on a sonogram...

Your daddy and I still even while not pregnant continued to play the name game...I would text him names and he would say thumbs up or thumbs down....we knew we wanted William as the middle name after your sweet Popi and Great Papa....we also assured your sweet Papaw in heaven that we would keep having babies until we had a son to carry on the McDonald name (within reason of course) ;) That was our promise to him...we are so thankful you are a sweet boy and get to carry on the McDonald name...we know your sweet Papaw smiled so big the day of our gender reveal:)

William means protector....I can't think of a more fitting, important meaning for a man's name...
Cayson means brave...another extremely strong meaning for a man....

BRAVE PROTECTOR

Raising a boy to be a loving, Godly man scares me way more than raising a daughter...I have such a strong desire for you to love and know God and to one day lead your wife and family!! I feel such a responsibility to train you and teach you how to treat women and others. Being a husband and father is such a huge responsibility and we are already praying the Lord stirs your heart for Him....

Other names we considered for you...your daddy was very difficult for boys names and Cayson and Elijah were pretty much his favorites....but we did consider Crew William, Isaiah, Conner, and Caden...apparently we liked C names:) But once we said Cayson WIlliam several times we were both so settled on it very early on....especially when picking your name I would practice saying it like I was introducing myself in a job interview ha....I wanted it to be strong, manly and confident!

I think there is so much significance behind names and we put a lot of thought into you and our little Isabella's name...we pray daily that ya'll truly know the love and grace of our Heavenly Father....we love you so much sweet Cayson W and can't wait to hold you in our arms in a few short weeks!



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