This cleaning frenzy in sued until she crashed out at about 4 am and then slept until Chaille woke her up at 1:30 today. We are praying this does not happen again tonight or ever but at least her house is spotless...she even spot cleaned carpet and would have mowed for my dad if it hadn't been dark.

Here is my mom's verse that she has been leaning on:

"Everyones got a story to tell, everyone has a wound that needs to be healed" Plumb.....I have been really listening to this song below a lot lately and knowing and trusting that God is in control. During this past few months of waiting I have clung to knowing that thankfully He is in control. I absolutely loved this blog post on waiting.  I loved Beth Moore's quote that "Never in our wait is God inactive." I truly believe that despite the pain and agony of waiting for our appointment today that God was completely in control working on each of us: my mom, my dad, my sisters, me, and Dr. Munoz. When Dr. Munoz came in today to tell us that the research from California came back that mom's Clear Cell carcinoma cancer is responsive to 2 chemos my heart sunk. I did and still have such mixed emotions while I NEVER, EVER wanted to see my mom have to go through the pain and discomfort of chemo again and I had prayed and begged God for no more chemo, I also felt the need to praise Him that there was a chemo that would treat her cancer. The week after we found out my mom's cancer was back during one of my very tearful quiet times I felt the Lord tell me that He wasn't finished with her in the chemo room. (You see my mom is a huge blessing to these women, preaching and encouraging...what she does best:) Though I prayed and hoped I had heard Him wrong I know that He is faithful and truly must not be done with her in that chemo room. Based on the research from mom's tumor in California she will be starting chemo again at the end of March or early April. We are praying her and my dad get to take a quick trip before it begins. She will be getting 6 months of chemo she will get 3 weeks of chemo then a week off each month. She will be receiving Taxotere (similar to Taxol she received here) and Cisplatin (similar to Carboplatin she also received here) and Avastin (like here) that helps by basically assisting the chemo to work even better. Please be praying for our mom right now pray for lots and lots of peace....and though I know small, please pray that she doesn't lose her hair...there is a small chance she won't. She will get another scan in 3 months to assure that she is responsive to the chemo.

So as most have heard we found out today that we will not be finding out my mom's PET scan results until next Monday. Apparently her oncologist is out all week..after kicking/screaming/sobbing getting over it tonight I have taken some time to meditate and be prayerful over the situation we are in. Over the last 2 years we have spent more time at doctor's offices and at hospitals than any family should ever need to and I have learned SO much about how as a provider I can be better at what I do. I approach every family and every patient with totally new intentions and insight. Families/parents/kids are scared, shocked and we as providers need to learn to meet them where they are and not question or belittle where they are at but embrace that everyone handles every situation differently. Even the most simple surgery is a BIG surgery when it is your family!! I've learned that the medical terminology that we assume people would/should know they don't. I have learned that most families have NO clue what in the world the doctor just said and they look to someone/anyone to decipher what in the world they are trying to say. So with this please friends in the medical profession be patient, speak to families and treat them as if they were your own...imagine how you would feel/act in a particular situation. And yes as one professional to another I plan to gently remind my mom's oncologist that it is NEVER EVER okay to keep a family waiting for possible life altering results for almost 2 weeks...we waited a week for the scan now anxiously wait for the results for a week. NEVER acceptable....no one should ever wait that long. I think sometimes unless a doctor has walked in the footsteps of their patients themselves or with family members they have no idea what it feels like...no idea what it feels like to be waiting...My sweet friend Ashley posted this song below and I have meditated on it for days now...I sob every time and my hubby asks me over and over if I should change the song but I have found SO much comfort in the song, comfort in the sobs and in the tears knowing that He is constant, He is only good and He is sovereign. And not for a moment will He forsake us. So thankful we can as his children rest in that promise...


I have also found so much comfort in this verse Marlen posted for me especially since patience is not easy for me:

Psalms 27:14-Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the LORD.

I cannot thank each of you, every friend, every person that has texted, called, sent encouragement and checked in over the last 1.5 weeks it already feels like an eternity but having SO many walking beside us has helped us get through it. Thank you from the bottom of my heart....we could not make it without your support and love.

UPDATE: Mom's appointment is set for Thursday, February 7th at 9:00 am. They are hoping to get us info before then but we aren't counting on it.