For over a year now I have had to constantly and continually pray against a spirit of fear. My life and world has been rocked far more than I would like but the hardest rock came last year with my mom's diagnosis of a difficult to beat ovarian cancer. Since that day I have felt the enemy try to continually rock my spirit and try to seed in doubt and fear....I have spent more time on my knees praying against fear. If we let fear seep in too far it can SO easily take over every ounce of who we are and how we do life.  I began to feel that same sense of fear when we were told we weren't going to be able to get pregnant on our own, then when we did that we had a high risk of miscarriage then this..Joe's most recent diagnosis...I found my self saying "Really God?!" I found myself crying out and felt like any sense of joy was being stolen from me. It took me months and months to actually enjoy the fact that I was pregnant...I even felt the joy trying to be stolen from me by other people's reactions to our good news, fear of miscarriage and doubt...I was so used to disappointment that it took me a long time to finally say "No God has given us this joy, He is always in control and He knew we would need it." It took one of my sweet friends Jen saying "Stephanie remember this is God's plan and find comfort and joy in that." And I did that day! It hit me that God was blessing us and I have had to wrap myself up in this sweet blessing...oh something so sweet that we needed. I felt that I was finally out of that fear attack when Joe's news struck our home...that night felt like such sheer panic and horror much like the day of my mom's diagnosis. I felt myself struggling with "Why." Then very recently my mom handed me a book to actually give away called "Always True." I felt like I was suppose to read it so I did. It is about God's 5 promises when life is hard and here is the 5 promises James MacDonald speaks on: